One of Those Days...

Ever have one of those days? One of those exceptionally craptastic days?  I don't mean just any old craptastic day, I mean  the kind where your future hangs in the balance?  The kind where time slows down, and the meeting that is taking place in some random lawyer's office, to decide your future, stretches on forever?  When you are sitting on the edge of your seat and hanging onto your sanity, trying to be strong, and all there is, is the waiting?
  Yup that's where I am right this very second.  Waiting on that phone call to let me know how bad the bad will be.  So I decided to vent about it.  That it why I created this site.  To vent about things with out the backlash of family and friends who shouldn't hear and know people who shouldn't hear what I am saying?  So by now you have probably freaking figured out that I write to stay sane? Well if you had not, there it is!  So I am losing my mind here!  ACK! Dammit! F*&%(I will go far, but not that f*&%ing far!) Growl, Urgh, Baaaaah, whine, (double facepalm)! I hate waiting!
  I hate waiting almost as much as the f*&%ers that are trying to destroy our lives! There are no words yet as to what I want to call "them."  So for now let them be known by simply, "them". I cannot fathom how one gets to be so self righteous and self important, as to want to destroy someone else.  Destroy their career, their livelihood, their reputation, make everyone hate them.   Okay, I thought of a good name for "them", the self-righteous bastards.  Hence forth let them be known as "self-righteous bastards".
   I just do not understand.  It happened to me before.  Now it is happening again, only much worse this time.  It's like the universe is saying, fight back dammit, we're gonna keep throwing this shit atcha until you fight back.  I am tired of fighting, I am tired of being tested.  I am ready to go along my merry way.  Leave me and my family the hell alone thank you very little! ARGH!  Life is never easy! Life is a battle, and if your lucky you come out on the other side, ripped to shreds, bloody, bruised, but intact.  Some are not so lucky.